Gold Stars, Good God

My cute cousin Melissa and I

Year after year, the new year begins, and there we have the dilemma of the New Year's resolution. Mine is always weight loss. Every new year, I think, "This is it. This will be the year." and then somehow I defeat myself with my overly high expectations and lofty goals.

That's what happened following January of 2011. From January until April there was the crazy spiral of weight loss expectations and failures, which only resulted in more eating out of frustration and need of comfort.

I went to Disney World for my 30th birthday in April with two of my cutest and skinniest friends, and was so discouraged with myself. But, I also had some time on my trip to spend learning more and more about grace, and God's deep and abiding love for me. And when I returned home, I knew that I needed to trust Him, and His goodness enough to give this area of my life over to Him. And so I do...every single day. Some days are better than others.


I joined Weight Watchers in the middle of May, and to date have lost 45 pounds. It's easy sometimes to either berate ourselves into trusting God more or get self-righteous when we have accomplished some of our goals...

so my New Year's resolution this year is to lean into my relationship with Jesus, and to continue to give Him thanks and praise for the things He helps me to do.

This year is going to be amazing. I know it. I can feel it.There's a lot more weight to lose, and a lot more to learn about Jesus.

I'm ready! Bring it on!!